Then and No Matter What

"Do not throw away this confident trust in the Lord, no matter what happens. Remember the great reward it brings you! Patient endurance is what you need now, so you will continue to do God's will. Then you will receive all that God has promised." Hebrews 10:35-36
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Just in the past few weeks, God has thrown me a complete curve ball. I didn't really know where to start this post, so I figured what better place than with an awesome verse he lead me to last night. It provided me with exactly what I needed to hear. However, with further studying of the verse, it also provided a lot that I didnt necessarily want to hear. With a quick glance of this verse, I get a feeling of easiness. "great reward" is enough to keep me going. But then, God brought my attention to two key phrases. The first being "no matter what"; meaning, the good and the bad. I'm learning that now in that my walk with the Lord isn't always going to be an easy one. In fact, right now it's been pretty uphill and curvy...we're talking mountain trail. The second thing that God really brought to my attention is the word "then." As in..."do all of these things and THEN you will receive something." It's not going to be easy; In fact, it's going to be pretty difficult. Remember that whole "test" I talked about the other week? Well, it's gotten even more difficult. I'm having to battle between so many obstacles that I feel like I'm alone...except for God. He's always with me. I'm so gracious that he showed me last night that I need to have patience and understanding, along with the confidence that no matter what happens, I need to have this confidence always. Difficult? Yes. Worth it? Definitely.
In times like these, it's easy to sink away from God and get angry when, in fact, He calls us to call on him in desperation! Sometimes, he brings us to that utter point of desperation in order to bring us to him. Maybe that's what he's doing. Whatever it is, it's working.
I don't really know where to end this post. I could go all day about how life is difficult right now, even though I still have SO many awesome things going on as well. Work is awesome, The Gauntlet is fast approaching, and thus far, summer has been pretty amazing....all thanks to the Big Guy upstairs. School is fast approaching and I don't really know how to feel about it. I guess we'll just have to see how He works this situation and morphs it into what is best for me to serve Him. Always.

Much Love,
Emma